Combatting the Dreaded Routine

Lately, I’ve fallen into a routine, which is something that is foreign to me by nature. There is an uncomfortably that comes with doing the same thing every day without wavering.

I know that it’s often said that some sort of routine is important in one’s life and while I can see instances where this makes sense I believe that we must do what make’s us feel more aligned.

This isn’t to say that I like for my world to be chaotic but on most days I want it to be unpredictable. I want to experience the many adventures waiting to be tapped into no matter how big or small they may be. Any small efforts deviating from routine works for me at this point.

My current situation involves me feeling more robotic. I wake up at 6am to start my day, head to Starbucks for about an hour and a half, go home and cook breakfast, and then work on and off for the rest of the day.

It’s crazy because people often say that you don’t know how much time passes when you’re having fun but rigorous routine can do the same, the only difference, in my opinion, is that you’re left unfulfilled.

Writing is a powerful form of manifestation. So I decided that I would write down everything that I want to change and how I plan to enact these changes moving forward.

One of the things that I want to do is challenge myself to create photographs that feel uncomfortable to me if that makes sense. But also hoping it can be a revealing moment. As Chicago’s weather becomes more harsh, working with models will be far, few, and in-between. With that said, I have plenty of time to challenge myself to take self-portraits (something that is uncomfortable for many photographers) while allowing myself to hone in on my style and come up with new ideas for when the weather breaks.

It’s the small things that count for me, and if I actively engage in dismantling my dreaded routine, I know that I will find my way back into alignment.

Hello, Hi, & Welcome

Woods
A wooded area in Georgia

I know the struggle of starting and restarting to “get things right”. I also know the struggle of living inside my own head and stifling my growth as a result.

Sometimes a reset is good, if not necessary. Other times, this need to restart is a result of your negative self telling you that you’re not good enough.

I am, in fact, restarting my blog. With that said, I recognize that I have been living in my own head. But this renewed blog isn’t really a result of my negative self creeping up, rather me realizing that the direction I thought I wanted to go with this blog isn’t the case anymore.

Therefore, starting over is necessary for me. To be honest, when I started this blog I became so overwhelmed with what made a blog successful that I felt forced to fit inside a mold. Even then, I couldn’t fit. I wasn’t satisfied with what I was creating, which has led to posting inconsistency.

Now, this blog is what it is. I’m a photographer that is learning and growing in the world. I am here to share photographs and personal thoughts that may make me feel vulnerable at times. I don’t have life figured out and my life may not even be all that interesting. But my words are raw and it is what I strive for my photographs to exude. Welcome.